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mourningcloak 70, Female, New York, USA - 14 entries

Jul 2010
3:57 AM EST

Talking to my Mom

�� I talked to her. I talked to my Mom. She died in February and I have had dreams about her but not like this. I said I keep forgetting you're not here. She said it's OK. I said I wanted to tell you something. Then I thought I should ask her some questions. I said can you see everybody? She said, "Just you guys." �I wanted to ask her if she saw God but then I said "Why are you unhappy?" Because she was breathing hard and wasn't smiling or anything. She said "I'm not unhappy" "There's no words." "I am trying to keep them for Sean." So it's hard to talk to us, I said. She nods her head, yes. I got the impression that the way we communicate is different than how they do and it's VERY hard for them to "talk to us". �I sobbed and sobbed after I �woke up and wrote this all down. Not out of joy. Out of hysteria. That's the only way I can describe it. I tried to tell my husband that this was not like a dream, that I really spoke to her. He believes me as much as he can without having experienced it himself. I am sort of angry that he can't. I am overwhelmed with what this means to me. I was never convinced that there is an afterlife. Until now. ��

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mamapangs 50, Female, Philippines - First entry!

Jul 2010
7:01 AM EDT

humiliated by the truth

What I did to you shame me into silence. It is you who has made me realize the bad things I do to my life. The thought of you fills me with longing and at the same time, a burning humiliation that produces deep wound and soreness. Your truthfullness mocks me and I am unable to confront this. None of this is your fault. It is completely with me. It is you who makes me see what I really am. I am weak and out of touch with myself.â€ I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow. I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights. I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life. I've learned that making a living is not the same thing as making a life. I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance. I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw some things back. I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision. I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one. I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back. I've learned that I still have a lot to learn. I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.â€

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mourningcloak 70, Female, New York, USA - 14 entries

Jul 2010
3:25 AM EST

STRESS

I dodged a bullet. I have a lump in my breast and it turns out it is just a cyst. And they don't want to do anything with it. Just leaving it alone. I am so relieved. But I am very stressed out these days and want to UNSTRESS! I am going to take some time off work. It stresses me out to do THAT! So I have to make sure I am doing the right things to get better....Eat right, sleep right, exercise and get fresh air. : ) Going into the garden. See you L8r.....

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PinoyPilgrims 25, Male, China - First entry!

Jul 2010
3:40 AM EDT

Bless Thy Name

Praise be unto You oh Lord
Infinite life you gave us
Nothing will ever be compared
Oh Lord, Your love abides
Your Holiness endures forever.

Proclaimed by Angels and Saints
Inscribed in the wonders of the earth
Literatures and Prophets foretold
Greatness of thy mercy oh Lord
Redeemer of our souls
Inspired by Holy Spirit
My life was saved for good.
Sincerely, I am grateful Lord

Tags: Oh Lord, Your love abides Your Holiness endures forever.

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Yhm 42, Female, China - 21 entries

Jun 2010
7:11 PM PST

not a feeling nor a choice!

Love is neither a feeling nor a choice, it is a gift, accept it!

You can't choose to love someone nor to feel something special about someone, but if love comes along, no matter you expect it or not, and even try to get rid of it, it won't just disappear, it's like a song, a rhythm that your heart can only go with its beat.

So just accept it, it's a gift, wrapped either in a fancy or ordinary way, but one thing's for sure... it's specially for you, so find out what's inside. Accept and open it!�

Tags: its a gift, just accept it

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vampiricakatt 29, Female, Minnesota, USA - 102 entries

Jun 2010
6:28 AM EDT

my mother

shes mean shes nice shes hurtful shes loving she isn't my mom oh yes indeed wtf my mom is the biggest bitch known to man all she ever does is bitch and complain it hurts me to say so but thats all she does if she doesn't want to hear it then she doesn't listen i cant even finish a sentce without her fucking being a bitch

Tags: mothers

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Sportygirl15 32, Female, Michigan, USA - 119 entries

Jun 2010
10:01 PM CST

Dumb people....

Why do people insist on posting their cell phone and home phone numbers on this site? Or why do they insist on saying stuff like,

�� "Hey! Whats up everyone?"

Ugh.. its soo anoying. I'm sry if I sound bitchy, but this is not a chat site. This is�a site where you can seek advice from others, post HOW you feel or what happened that day or w/e, not

�� "Im bored, so you should call me!"

Gawd! Really? And it takes me alot to get pissed off about this stuff. I dont care if someone does it a few times a month.. or once in a blue moon. But to post silly crap like that ten or more times in a week? Come on.... and to post several diff. things in one day. UGHH! Why not wait until the end of the day or something, or go back and add to your orignal post, so that theres not five hundered million posts on the same page!! From the same person!!

And yes Im truley sorry if I sound like the biggest bitch ever, but it is annoying to have to sift through them, if you know what I mean. And no, Im not saying that everyone does this, I try not to even post to much, cause I know how much it annoys me.. see? I stick to my own rule hahaha

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Cobra376 26, Male, New York, USA - 5 entries

Jun 2010
7:23 AM EDT

I just finished my summer cleaning.

Tags: Cleaning, Summer

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Yhm 42, Female, China - 21 entries

Jun 2010
3:15 PM PST

everything is a subject to "Change"

I remember when i first stepped in my apartment. It looked alright, but that's just it...alright.

I slept the first time and noticed that my apartment isn't tidy after all. cab webs and stains in the toilet, plus carpet not vacuumed well. It's so green... green living room set paired with green huge curtains that made me feel a "green princess", I must admit that i love green but somehow, i tried not to make my room so monotone, and since i love ornaments, i tried to fit an appropriate decor in each corner of my home sweet home.�

2 years of living in this sanctuary helps me in my decision making at peace. I met new friends and hope no enemy. �I'm so comfortable living here coz i'm so familiar with every twist and turns of this place, but true enough that without anticipating i'd be leaving this place.

My only witness to all sentiments and agonies. Things that i never shared even to my closest friend but this place would remain quiet and has no chance to unveil the serenity of my true being. I cried, laughed and hated someone that I tell no one, but I believe the 4 corners of this place knew it very well. We really had a close relationship with each other.

How I wish not everything is a subject to change but I can't resist the the reality of such phrase. I just hope that the moments I stayed would compensate this shelter from a temporary time of being freed from mess and the dust.

Hoping that I'll feel comfy and� safe to my next sanctuary.

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Yhm 42, Female, China - 21 entries

Jun 2010
10:15 PM PST

God has a plan for you & I bet it's the best!

Sometimes we tend to complain whenever circumstances arouse & we could hardly figure out the solution. And first thing we'll do is to phone a friend on a helpline & if both of you can't fix the mess sometimes it just ends there & it seems like there's no way to go. But the worst thing is.... when we complain to God why such things are happening.�

We often want to have a life which is almost perfect & if not...we want it "flawless". But before everything become how it use to be, it needs to undergo situations wherein it needs to be polished, it won't be as fine as it is without working on it's rough side, and it took a lot of time working on those sharp edges to make it smooth & good enough to be a present.

Don't get discouraged if you're not suppose to be who you want to be as of the moment, or if you don't get your utmost desires. There's always a right time for everything, all you have to do is to keep on keeping on, never hesitate to get back on the track if you're misled, true enough that time is precious but if you've wasted a lot of time being in nowhere because you want to be in somewhere you should "fit in", I guess it won't be a waste starting over again as long as you'll reach your destination. Just be patient, because along the way, you'll learn something that will help you fully understand that everything you'd been through is essential to make you strong enough not to be defeated nor deceived by any means. Everything happens for a purpose, may you find your purpose by having the desire to finish the game. Winners always finishes the game, you can't be a winner just by having a good start, to win is to endure and to give your �best shot up to d end, it's not "how many score" but it's how you scored.

Always take note that regardless of your current circumstances, God wants you to remember that He has a plan for you. And it's a good one.

Tags: Winners always finishes the game, you cant be a winner just by having a good start

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